By Wyatt Earp | June 26, 2008
At this point, it’ll be forever until I look like this.
Well, I just came back from a five-mile walk. I have bumped up my daily routine from three miles to five, and I am feeling much better overall. Our Blogger Blubber Battle will end in four days, and in six months, I have lost 38 pounds.
But that’s just not enough.
Every time I walked past a parked car, I would glance at the window and see my reflection. The stomach – although smaller – is still there, staring back at me with that, “Yeah, you’re still a fat frak” look. It has really been bothering me the past couple of weeks.
I’ve always had a problem with self-image. And as you can see from Cowboy Blob’s photoshop above, I don’t exactly look like Brad Pitt – I look a little more like cherry pit. It was much worse when I was waddling around at 5’9″ and 236 pounds, but even after losing weight, there is only so much I can do with what God gave me: factory seconds. Even when people give me compliments – it’s rare – I usually don’t take them well. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate them, but they just make me feel uncomfortable.
The same holds true for the blog. I love the readers, and love when you comment on some drivel that comes out o my warped mind. That being said, when people say that I have something akin to talent, I shudder a little. Part of me doesn’t believe it – let’s be honest, I’m a rodeo clown with a keyboard – and part of me doesn’t want to start believing the nice things people say. My head is already big enough – thank you, God.
I know what you’re thinking: Wyatt, what’s your point? To be honest, I really don’t have one, but I am tired, my legs are sore, and I’m feeling pretty sorry for myself today. I go through days like this maybe once a month. It must be the mental illness.
So, despite what you may think, this is not a plea for sympathy or even compliments. Save them for a decent post. Actually, I think I would rather y’all tell me what you don’t like about me or the blog. This way, we can get it all out of our systems for a few hours. I’ll post something better later on.